Some friends came over one Friday night to celebrate my birthday in advance. . .

As expected, we had so much fun and laughter over booze and food. Loud music was blaring in the background until the wee hours of the morning. Some of them were so intoxicated they decided to just sleep over. They left one by one as they woke up - the last of them leaving shortly before lunch.

I started tidying up my place and finished around 3:00 pm. I was so tired and groggy with sleep deprivation that I practically threw myself on the couch and promptly fell asleep.

Around 7:00 pm, I woke up to a very dark place, devoid of any noise. I felt disoriented for a few seconds and tried to figure out where I was and what had just happened.

Then I realized I was in my condo unit and remembered the celebration the night before. From a very happy and noisy evening surrounded by garrulous friends. . . to total darkness and silence.

I suddenly felt so lonely...so alone. Without warning, I started to cry and sob uncontrollably. Never before did I feel this way in my life. With much effort, I pulled myself up from the couch, turned on the lights and switched on the TV. It helped a little but was not enough. Tears were still flowing from my eyes.

Interspersed with wiping my eyes and my runny nose, I started exchanging messages with a couple of close friends. Words of understanding (no judgement) and assurances from them that they would always be there for me seemed to have helped and made me feel better.

Still harboring a heavy heart, I went to the bedroom and decided to sleep with the thought that all would be better when I wake up in the morning.

It worked! I woke up feeling refreshed and with no sign of the loneliness and feelings of being alone I so strongly felt just the night before.

That was truly one weird evening. But it proved once again how important true friends are and how important sharing your thoughts is instead of just keeping them to yourself. Also, it is the promise and blessing of a brand new day that helped a lot. It is always an opportunity to start fresh and a chance to become a better version of yourself.

As the lyrics of a song sung and composed by Ben E. King goes: "...When the night has come...And the land is dark...And the moon is the only light we see...If the sky should tumble and fall and the mountain should crumble to the sea...No I won't be afraid...No I won't shed a tear...Just as long as you stand by me."(CJ/JVL)

-, January 31, 2024

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